Thoroughly Uninspired

For the past 2 weeks, give or take, I have found myself with a raging case of writers block. Add to that a rough bought with my monthly tormenter PMDD, a condition similar to PMS but much, much worse, and you’ve got yourself a bona fide case of the blues. As I’ve noted to a few people before, rest assured something’s up with me if I let more than a couple days go by without posting.

I’m trying to shake it. I’m having some success at that, but I go through these phases where everything is right in the world, or where everything is wrong in the world. Let’s just say that for the past couple weeks, I’ve been experiencing the latter.

I feel it’s important for me to acknowledge when this happens, because when you read the blog of someone you may or may not know, generally it’s just a tiny snapshot of that person’s life, but can come across as perfect perfect perfect all the time, and that is definitely not the case with me. I do try to put a happy spin on most posts - which is one of my strategies for getting over a funk, since posting on my blog has become one of my most favorite activities. It’s a way for me to get lost in something, and take my focus off other, less happy things I may be experiencing at the time.

I read something today about meditation, and how, through meditation we learn that we are not our thoughts - which is a good thing if you can calm the mind enough to actually meditate. The author drew a comparison of the human mind “to a supercomputer possessed by the soul of a demented squirrel, constantly calculating, anticipating, remembering, fantasizing, worrying, hoarding, bouncing frenetically from one thought to the next.” That is so me right now.

But the Earth has not stopped spinning, and life goes on every day. It’s not like I haven’t been able to get out of bed, although the thought has certainly crossed my mind (repeatedly) in the past 2 weeks. I spent a boat load of cash on getting my hair cut and colored, I went to Gatlinburg, I joined Weight Watchers again, and my nephew Finn turned one. I have a little catching up to do, so here it comes.